ok, so the last couple of weeks i have been ovelwhelmed with thoughts and my state of mind has been kind of funny, to be sincere not that i particurlarly know why. I know i have had continuous re-occuring arguments but i think the worst for me was dealing with people that you didnt even know disliked you in the first place...so when they creep on you...i thought no way!!!!!! and the verdict was stuff that i apparently did about 3- 4 years back, which from my own books i didnt even know existed..so i was angryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
I mean this people made me wonder to God if i was such a horrible person and i had to think to myself would i really have done this, and the more i thought about it the more i could justify to myself that this where just haters...and they just wanted to hate and the more i thought more of it, the more my anger built up...and the more bitterness grew within me..and then i took time out to reflect after some quiet prayer cos i was going to Burst otherwise!!! Thank God for the Holy spirit..
So during my reflection i thought of the following:
If i am to live my life for God fully not halfly i have to emulate the characters he left behind, and we all know no one can walk in the footstep of Jesus unless it was given to you through the grace and Mercy of the father. I thought how could Jesus have died for people who despised him, people who spat on him, slapped him across the face, called him a liar, made a mockery of him and then crucified him on the cross to die Naked and still he thought we were worthy. I mean i have watched so many films of Jesus dying on the cross but i dont think it really hits you personally, and physically of what he did, unless you were in a position to wipe out your enemy especially when you have the power to do it but still you didnt because you loved...wowwwwww...(Man definately cannot comprehend the vastness of Gods Love)
Then i thought the lord thought i was worthy to be died for, he thought you were worthy even though we werent worth it...not worth a dime so then i realised i need to love my enemies, i mean you have to love your enemies.. I mean for me it dosent mean that i have to eat with them or go visiting. But i need to be anger free, i need to be bitterness free, i need to absolutely just think they got me wrong and somewhere in their hatred, there is a likeness of Gods Breath in their soul somewhere..
Cos boy!!!!! i cant let an enemy make me miss heaven...the ultimate price..when i could have loved, liked or at least be conscience free of Hatred "Then on that day one is told...your father Jesus loved, why didnt you love...and you are like but i loved my friends, my husband, my Kids, My family, the Orphans Blah Blah....and then he asks what about that one friend that hurt you, did you love or you did pay back)...God forbid!! not my Portion In Jesus Name and not your portion in Jesus name as well ohhh...Amen..(Loll)...But Jokes aside as hard as it seems please let us love those who hate us and despise us, if God who was perfect in Human form as Jesus Christ, though Perfect was still condemned, how much more us.
So for me another big Lesson Learnt glory to God..I hope it strikes a nerve with someone out there and hopefully you are able to let go...and rid yourself of the bitterness of A Betrayed friend, A betrayed Husband / Wife, A betrayed sibling of any sort even though they deserve every bit of it..you let go, because Christ let go for us so we could be saved..
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