So today i have come across this post that i never got to publish but then i thought why not, I must have written it to remind myself that i need to stop worrying and to let tomorrow take care of its self..so here goes. I hope it helps someone out there.
Money can buy a house...yep it can!!!!
it can also buy a nice haute car...ummmm
Money can buy some pretty fancy designer bags, clothes and shoes.
Money will buy food or ok classy expensive food.
Money can buy a way of life....
emmmmm help me out what else am i missing!!!!!!
Money can also create some vast envious atmosphere even though some people would envy you even when you dont have.
Money would give some great education and a chance of a brighter future on earth.
but then again i cant help but think
Money cannot buy love
It can't buy some pretty special people in your life even though you could buy some fake friends.
Money cant buy Health
Money cant buy the quality of Life
Money can not create the fruit of the womb...even though it can be instigated but only at God's time could it be well worth it..
Money cannot buy Peace.
Money cant buy Happiness.
Money cannot buy Salvation nor faith
Money cannot buy Life.
Overrall money cannot save your soul or provide the core essentials that matters to our life on earth.
Tuesday, 21 June 2011
LADY GA What?
ok i have been relenting from this topic for a very long time, because i really did not want to get this wrong..so my hubby gets home and tells me have i heard Lady Gaga's new song called "Judas" not that i am a Fan, anyway i raise my eyebrow and am like whats the song about, so he says the title is called Judas, and i am sorry if i offend anyone but please understand this is my own thought and interpretation..Hubby says he couldnt help but say Ha!!! at the Gym when he heard the song..
so as they say curiousity kills the CAT...but in my case curiousity gives me wisdom and knowledge on guiding my soul from the so called songs of our generation which is slowly killing the minds of our youths..
So i am forced to go on my Fav Website Vigilantcitizen.com and behold what do i see on the first page of the website is Lady Gaga's Judas Music, from my reading on the website it explains a number of radio stations had asked her the meaning of the song and for some she said she was talking about the future and to others she was talking about an old boyfriend who keeps betraying her..but ohhh wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll to me i think its all rubbish..
what amazes me so much is that there are two types of hiphop arrtists, the ones who do tremendous amount of charity work and talk about growing up int he church, yet in the video there are totally almost Naked or sexually motivated dance moves that totally makes any abled man commit adultery almost instanteneously and the other ones who are atheist and have no belief of God existing yet in their videos their is every connotation to insult the faith as a christian by showing signs and video's that insult stories in the bible..
ok so back to lady Gaga...in the video she shows the disciples of Jesus in a leather jacket with their names on the jacket and a skeleton drawn to it such as Matthew and so on bikes, with the man Lady Gaga is riding with had thorns on his head like that which was worn on the head of Jesus before he was crucified, which from my interpretation is Jesus... however while she was on the Bic she seems to be constantly stirring at Judas, like she was in love with him but really i wont go into all the details but the bit that annoys me is the singing in the lyrics of a King with no throne just like th eroman soldiers mocked Jesus before putting the thorns on his head, and showing the disciples of God in clubs partying and drinking and the healing of Jesus's miracles as a scenario in a club, also showing Judas kissing and commiting adultery with two women, we know judas betrayed Jesus but no where were we told he was an adulterer.( I dont care about the all 21st century crap about making the video interesting it is pure rubbish) and another way of selling to our youths its ok to be drunk and club and still hang on to Jesus...No it is not okkkkkkkk!!!!! a practically naked Lady Gaga then dresses herself has the woman who was almost stoned to dead, which Jesus did not condemn but saved, but rather in the video Lady Gaga was stoned to death like Jesus was not there to save her, therefore leaving her to die..which again is false..
I meant have the producers, the writers and whole of crew of this video lost the plot, do they not understand the price which was paid for our life, that it has become a dance video..i mean this is so sad, it is a norm in the entertainment industry..
We really need to stop tolerating this abuse to our faith, we need to make sure our youths know the truth and the ways of Jesus and it is not the so called halfly naked clothing or the kick of binge drinking but the true values of Jesus...Lets not get our selves confused.....for Rev 3:15“(I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of my mouth)..
Therefore people there is no lukewarm in christ.. we are either for it or against it..however it is important to remember to condemn the sin and not the sinner as the word says him without sin cast the first stone..
We really need to open our eyes to what is on our TV, our magazines and the so called norm of this century and radically break away from it...and not just ignore it..but live our life based on the truth of the Lord Jesus. and more importantly teach it to our kids, our nieces, our nephews, our little ones.. its too important to ignore............
so as they say curiousity kills the CAT...but in my case curiousity gives me wisdom and knowledge on guiding my soul from the so called songs of our generation which is slowly killing the minds of our youths..
So i am forced to go on my Fav Website Vigilantcitizen.com and behold what do i see on the first page of the website is Lady Gaga's Judas Music, from my reading on the website it explains a number of radio stations had asked her the meaning of the song and for some she said she was talking about the future and to others she was talking about an old boyfriend who keeps betraying her..but ohhh wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll to me i think its all rubbish..
what amazes me so much is that there are two types of hiphop arrtists, the ones who do tremendous amount of charity work and talk about growing up int he church, yet in the video there are totally almost Naked or sexually motivated dance moves that totally makes any abled man commit adultery almost instanteneously and the other ones who are atheist and have no belief of God existing yet in their videos their is every connotation to insult the faith as a christian by showing signs and video's that insult stories in the bible..
ok so back to lady Gaga...in the video she shows the disciples of Jesus in a leather jacket with their names on the jacket and a skeleton drawn to it such as Matthew and so on bikes, with the man Lady Gaga is riding with had thorns on his head like that which was worn on the head of Jesus before he was crucified, which from my interpretation is Jesus... however while she was on the Bic she seems to be constantly stirring at Judas, like she was in love with him but really i wont go into all the details but the bit that annoys me is the singing in the lyrics of a King with no throne just like th eroman soldiers mocked Jesus before putting the thorns on his head, and showing the disciples of God in clubs partying and drinking and the healing of Jesus's miracles as a scenario in a club, also showing Judas kissing and commiting adultery with two women, we know judas betrayed Jesus but no where were we told he was an adulterer.( I dont care about the all 21st century crap about making the video interesting it is pure rubbish) and another way of selling to our youths its ok to be drunk and club and still hang on to Jesus...No it is not okkkkkkkk!!!!! a practically naked Lady Gaga then dresses herself has the woman who was almost stoned to dead, which Jesus did not condemn but saved, but rather in the video Lady Gaga was stoned to death like Jesus was not there to save her, therefore leaving her to die..which again is false..
I meant have the producers, the writers and whole of crew of this video lost the plot, do they not understand the price which was paid for our life, that it has become a dance video..i mean this is so sad, it is a norm in the entertainment industry..
We really need to stop tolerating this abuse to our faith, we need to make sure our youths know the truth and the ways of Jesus and it is not the so called halfly naked clothing or the kick of binge drinking but the true values of Jesus...Lets not get our selves confused.....for Rev 3:15“(I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot. So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of my mouth)..
Therefore people there is no lukewarm in christ.. we are either for it or against it..however it is important to remember to condemn the sin and not the sinner as the word says him without sin cast the first stone..
We really need to open our eyes to what is on our TV, our magazines and the so called norm of this century and radically break away from it...and not just ignore it..but live our life based on the truth of the Lord Jesus. and more importantly teach it to our kids, our nieces, our nephews, our little ones.. its too important to ignore............
What happens after tomorrow
Hello..........as my post is going to be a bit all over the place today as my mind keeps jumping from one thing to another and i almost cant help it...so dont mind me if i keep moving from one topic to the other would just let my thoughts write what it needs to get out...
Have you ever really pondered on our life after tomorrow, so ok i am not talking about the food we will eat tomorrow, or the car we are saving up to buy next month...or next year...but really what happens to us after the end of life..Do you actually think of this or dont you..cos i really need to know if i am just weird to think about this things...loll...as am sure we think about the next wedding we are going / aso ebi /or concert, or you know general things which is definately normal....but the last couple of months no matter how much i pushed it aside i keep thinking about what really happens when we die....a horde topic dont you think?...or say a horde thought. But not to focus on that point for long as really only God knows what happens after death.. I mean i have watched enough after life experience of people and their experience of hell and things..but really you cant help but think in your mind what if its just fiction and its not true. but more importantly for me is to serve Jesus in truth by Gods Grace..If we cover that part fiction or no Fiction we have nothing to loose..
However this very thought have made me more in touch with the things i do on a daily basis, whether it is as little as a white liar, or a little envy, or a tiny bit of jealousy or be it Gossip but in real terms to think about my actions every God given day about what wrong i had done during the day and to make it right before i go to bed cos you never know there never may be another time to reflect on this things...for me this is a new reflection for my being as to the word says we should be at alert as no one knows when the father is coming, as he comes as a thief in the night and we have to be always ready....so how do you prepare for his coming if not to make our ways right before him and then to the people around us.
I mean are you ready for christ today?.. if he came today would we be ready to go with him?. i have learnt that salvation is a gift given to us by God and it is not by the works we do on earth but by pure mercy, grace and love from the heavenly father but even with that i do think we need to strife to make our conscience and the holy spirit within us to bear witness to the things we do in our daily life, to be good and love others.
The word love rings to my thought...if only we could love everyone around us,( so dont mis interprete me i didnt mean for everyone to love us) but if we as christians, as children of the most high God showed pure love to another without thinking of the benefits of this and especially when no one was watching?
As we live in a world totally based on individual selfish traits,(my this,my that,my, my, my) the ability to live our lives and totally exclude everything else inside it, We live in a world where we show love to only our families and friends and never really to strangers.. we have a religion that is self centered on judgementalism and been hypocritical if their is such a word..and some of us try so hard to help others in our mind but physically we are handicapped by carrying out the tasks, also our so called system works us like machines where the only things we are programmed to think about is work, money, sleep and a new luxury to reward ourselves for the hardwork. The system almost makes it impossible to fit in other people in our lives. After a tired day at work, i really dont know how one can fit in any charity help we could render.
However for me the holyspirit started to make me realise i didnt have to do charity work on a daily basis but still i could try to show love on the train, like always surveying my surroundings and looking for one who needs help, ( I know you re almost late for work and if you dont catch that train you would be late, so what time do u have to look around) but we have to, if you dont look you cannot see..( you cannot see that single mother struggling to push her buggy by herself up the stairs, or the weaker / older persons standing opposite you on the train and really needs that chair you re sitting in.) even though yes u are tired!!!!!....its Hard but God sees our heart, our intention and he helps us through. so i think it all adds up as to what we get to on our daily basis. Our life here is not just about us but about everything and everyone else...
I really hope with all my jumping around thoughts you can get an idea of what i mean...mainly as tomorrow is unknown let us love and be diligent in christ today, so when tomorrow comes we have no regret of today and even if we did, we had made amends at the end of today, to make tomorrow a new beginning and a new start..
Have you ever really pondered on our life after tomorrow, so ok i am not talking about the food we will eat tomorrow, or the car we are saving up to buy next month...or next year...but really what happens to us after the end of life..Do you actually think of this or dont you..cos i really need to know if i am just weird to think about this things...loll...as am sure we think about the next wedding we are going / aso ebi /or concert, or you know general things which is definately normal....but the last couple of months no matter how much i pushed it aside i keep thinking about what really happens when we die....a horde topic dont you think?...or say a horde thought. But not to focus on that point for long as really only God knows what happens after death.. I mean i have watched enough after life experience of people and their experience of hell and things..but really you cant help but think in your mind what if its just fiction and its not true. but more importantly for me is to serve Jesus in truth by Gods Grace..If we cover that part fiction or no Fiction we have nothing to loose..
However this very thought have made me more in touch with the things i do on a daily basis, whether it is as little as a white liar, or a little envy, or a tiny bit of jealousy or be it Gossip but in real terms to think about my actions every God given day about what wrong i had done during the day and to make it right before i go to bed cos you never know there never may be another time to reflect on this things...for me this is a new reflection for my being as to the word says we should be at alert as no one knows when the father is coming, as he comes as a thief in the night and we have to be always ready....so how do you prepare for his coming if not to make our ways right before him and then to the people around us.
I mean are you ready for christ today?.. if he came today would we be ready to go with him?. i have learnt that salvation is a gift given to us by God and it is not by the works we do on earth but by pure mercy, grace and love from the heavenly father but even with that i do think we need to strife to make our conscience and the holy spirit within us to bear witness to the things we do in our daily life, to be good and love others.
The word love rings to my thought...if only we could love everyone around us,( so dont mis interprete me i didnt mean for everyone to love us) but if we as christians, as children of the most high God showed pure love to another without thinking of the benefits of this and especially when no one was watching?
As we live in a world totally based on individual selfish traits,(my this,my that,my, my, my) the ability to live our lives and totally exclude everything else inside it, We live in a world where we show love to only our families and friends and never really to strangers.. we have a religion that is self centered on judgementalism and been hypocritical if their is such a word..and some of us try so hard to help others in our mind but physically we are handicapped by carrying out the tasks, also our so called system works us like machines where the only things we are programmed to think about is work, money, sleep and a new luxury to reward ourselves for the hardwork. The system almost makes it impossible to fit in other people in our lives. After a tired day at work, i really dont know how one can fit in any charity help we could render.
However for me the holyspirit started to make me realise i didnt have to do charity work on a daily basis but still i could try to show love on the train, like always surveying my surroundings and looking for one who needs help, ( I know you re almost late for work and if you dont catch that train you would be late, so what time do u have to look around) but we have to, if you dont look you cannot see..( you cannot see that single mother struggling to push her buggy by herself up the stairs, or the weaker / older persons standing opposite you on the train and really needs that chair you re sitting in.) even though yes u are tired!!!!!....its Hard but God sees our heart, our intention and he helps us through. so i think it all adds up as to what we get to on our daily basis. Our life here is not just about us but about everything and everyone else...
I really hope with all my jumping around thoughts you can get an idea of what i mean...mainly as tomorrow is unknown let us love and be diligent in christ today, so when tomorrow comes we have no regret of today and even if we did, we had made amends at the end of today, to make tomorrow a new beginning and a new start..
I am happy for you
I love my friends but i love u.,yes u my God given, chosen friend in crisis.You are such a blessing to my soul, a blessing to my world. You have brought so much joy my way. You have given me wisdom and You have made me understand that the God we serve never sleeps nor slumber,You have woken me up when i was asleep in my faith.
You have held my hand when i couldnt see the light.You have been such a diligent friend, a sister, a brother, my helper.The truth as always set us free, and our love of God continuously binds us together. Today i am happy for you like because you persevered and you overcame..
In your pain, in your grief you waited on the lord and the word says (Isaiah 40:31)"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
For your today, tomorow and forever, you re an eagle that has flown over the impossibilities that mans mind project.. As we re more than flesh to our creator. May the love of God that binds us together never depart from us. As Jesus loved his beloved to the end, May we love ourselves till the end. May we continue to be better children to the most high God, better wives to our soul mate and better mothers to the children God has set in our parts to nurture.. Amen.
You have held my hand when i couldnt see the light.You have been such a diligent friend, a sister, a brother, my helper.The truth as always set us free, and our love of God continuously binds us together. Today i am happy for you like because you persevered and you overcame..
In your pain, in your grief you waited on the lord and the word says (Isaiah 40:31)"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
For your today, tomorow and forever, you re an eagle that has flown over the impossibilities that mans mind project.. As we re more than flesh to our creator. May the love of God that binds us together never depart from us. As Jesus loved his beloved to the end, May we love ourselves till the end. May we continue to be better children to the most high God, better wives to our soul mate and better mothers to the children God has set in our parts to nurture.. Amen.
Sunday, 5 June 2011
I am not Perfect? Are you!!!!!!
So really my food for thought since my last post really as been to take life at a more easier pace..and to give myself ease of life..Be happy, make Peace, hold no Grudge, serve God with all i have and continuously be a good person to the people around me, regardless of if they deserve it or not.....(Gulp!!!!!) I know it will be hard but emmmmmmmm by Gods Grace...i will get there..
so i think i have been relatively hard on myself for a couple of years back, taking it gravely to heart everytime someone said i did something to them, i just always thought it was there fault and they misread me and kind of i was always right.. But i thank God for this new found me, of not perfect and it is ok for you to do a thing or two wrong, just think about it looking at both sides and apologise if you need to...and then life continues....
Life is too short, and i want to spend the rest of my time on this earth happy as much as i can be, be a good inflence to other people, help others, Bring people to Christ, Make heaven by his grace, be a Virtuous woman to my tiksy...and a mother of great wisdom and knowledge to my children..
so my logo this month...is to remind myself that I am not perfect!!!!!!!
so i think i have been relatively hard on myself for a couple of years back, taking it gravely to heart everytime someone said i did something to them, i just always thought it was there fault and they misread me and kind of i was always right.. But i thank God for this new found me, of not perfect and it is ok for you to do a thing or two wrong, just think about it looking at both sides and apologise if you need to...and then life continues....
Life is too short, and i want to spend the rest of my time on this earth happy as much as i can be, be a good inflence to other people, help others, Bring people to Christ, Make heaven by his grace, be a Virtuous woman to my tiksy...and a mother of great wisdom and knowledge to my children..
so my logo this month...is to remind myself that I am not perfect!!!!!!!
Tuesday, 10 May 2011
How do you love your enemies?
ok, so the last couple of weeks i have been ovelwhelmed with thoughts and my state of mind has been kind of funny, to be sincere not that i particurlarly know why. I know i have had continuous re-occuring arguments but i think the worst for me was dealing with people that you didnt even know disliked you in the first place...so when they creep on you...i thought no way!!!!!! and the verdict was stuff that i apparently did about 3- 4 years back, which from my own books i didnt even know existed..so i was angryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!
I mean this people made me wonder to God if i was such a horrible person and i had to think to myself would i really have done this, and the more i thought about it the more i could justify to myself that this where just haters...and they just wanted to hate and the more i thought more of it, the more my anger built up...and the more bitterness grew within me..and then i took time out to reflect after some quiet prayer cos i was going to Burst otherwise!!! Thank God for the Holy spirit..
So during my reflection i thought of the following:
If i am to live my life for God fully not halfly i have to emulate the characters he left behind, and we all know no one can walk in the footstep of Jesus unless it was given to you through the grace and Mercy of the father. I thought how could Jesus have died for people who despised him, people who spat on him, slapped him across the face, called him a liar, made a mockery of him and then crucified him on the cross to die Naked and still he thought we were worthy. I mean i have watched so many films of Jesus dying on the cross but i dont think it really hits you personally, and physically of what he did, unless you were in a position to wipe out your enemy especially when you have the power to do it but still you didnt because you loved...wowwwwww...(Man definately cannot comprehend the vastness of Gods Love)
Then i thought the lord thought i was worthy to be died for, he thought you were worthy even though we werent worth it...not worth a dime so then i realised i need to love my enemies, i mean you have to love your enemies.. I mean for me it dosent mean that i have to eat with them or go visiting. But i need to be anger free, i need to be bitterness free, i need to absolutely just think they got me wrong and somewhere in their hatred, there is a likeness of Gods Breath in their soul somewhere..
Cos boy!!!!! i cant let an enemy make me miss heaven...the ultimate price..when i could have loved, liked or at least be conscience free of Hatred "Then on that day one is told...your father Jesus loved, why didnt you love...and you are like but i loved my friends, my husband, my Kids, My family, the Orphans Blah Blah....and then he asks what about that one friend that hurt you, did you love or you did pay back)...God forbid!! not my Portion In Jesus Name and not your portion in Jesus name as well ohhh...Amen..(Loll)...But Jokes aside as hard as it seems please let us love those who hate us and despise us, if God who was perfect in Human form as Jesus Christ, though Perfect was still condemned, how much more us.
So for me another big Lesson Learnt glory to God..I hope it strikes a nerve with someone out there and hopefully you are able to let go...and rid yourself of the bitterness of A Betrayed friend, A betrayed Husband / Wife, A betrayed sibling of any sort even though they deserve every bit of it..you let go, because Christ let go for us so we could be saved..
I mean this people made me wonder to God if i was such a horrible person and i had to think to myself would i really have done this, and the more i thought about it the more i could justify to myself that this where just haters...and they just wanted to hate and the more i thought more of it, the more my anger built up...and the more bitterness grew within me..and then i took time out to reflect after some quiet prayer cos i was going to Burst otherwise!!! Thank God for the Holy spirit..
So during my reflection i thought of the following:
If i am to live my life for God fully not halfly i have to emulate the characters he left behind, and we all know no one can walk in the footstep of Jesus unless it was given to you through the grace and Mercy of the father. I thought how could Jesus have died for people who despised him, people who spat on him, slapped him across the face, called him a liar, made a mockery of him and then crucified him on the cross to die Naked and still he thought we were worthy. I mean i have watched so many films of Jesus dying on the cross but i dont think it really hits you personally, and physically of what he did, unless you were in a position to wipe out your enemy especially when you have the power to do it but still you didnt because you loved...wowwwwww...(Man definately cannot comprehend the vastness of Gods Love)
Then i thought the lord thought i was worthy to be died for, he thought you were worthy even though we werent worth it...not worth a dime so then i realised i need to love my enemies, i mean you have to love your enemies.. I mean for me it dosent mean that i have to eat with them or go visiting. But i need to be anger free, i need to be bitterness free, i need to absolutely just think they got me wrong and somewhere in their hatred, there is a likeness of Gods Breath in their soul somewhere..
Cos boy!!!!! i cant let an enemy make me miss heaven...the ultimate price..when i could have loved, liked or at least be conscience free of Hatred "Then on that day one is told...your father Jesus loved, why didnt you love...and you are like but i loved my friends, my husband, my Kids, My family, the Orphans Blah Blah....and then he asks what about that one friend that hurt you, did you love or you did pay back)...God forbid!! not my Portion In Jesus Name and not your portion in Jesus name as well ohhh...Amen..(Loll)...But Jokes aside as hard as it seems please let us love those who hate us and despise us, if God who was perfect in Human form as Jesus Christ, though Perfect was still condemned, how much more us.
So for me another big Lesson Learnt glory to God..I hope it strikes a nerve with someone out there and hopefully you are able to let go...and rid yourself of the bitterness of A Betrayed friend, A betrayed Husband / Wife, A betrayed sibling of any sort even though they deserve every bit of it..you let go, because Christ let go for us so we could be saved..
Happy Newyear
Wow..has it been ages!!!....and boy!!!!! has so many things happened, i have changed, i have growned, i have gained weight, i have lost more weight, i have lost friends and i have gained some more...so really you get the gists that a lot has happened......
How have you been and how is ur newyear going..am sure a lot as changed for you as well..funny thing we are already in May and am still thinking its a New year...
Looking at my last update i have just realised that it is almost a year since i have atually had weave in my hair...oh wow.....Didnt think i would survive my vain- ness but Glory to God i started to see how pretty i was without those little gods i call weave- on...someone scream Halleluyah!!!!!....Apart from the fact that i saved a fortune...no jokes as in i would sometimes change my hair every 2weeks....and even a week when i was having a bad hair day..but thanks to support from Hubby and Bimby lads....LOVE YOU LOADSSSSSS......
I actually had a post in hand wills end that in a minute...Have a Fab day people..
How have you been and how is ur newyear going..am sure a lot as changed for you as well..funny thing we are already in May and am still thinking its a New year...
Looking at my last update i have just realised that it is almost a year since i have atually had weave in my hair...oh wow.....Didnt think i would survive my vain- ness but Glory to God i started to see how pretty i was without those little gods i call weave- on...someone scream Halleluyah!!!!!....Apart from the fact that i saved a fortune...no jokes as in i would sometimes change my hair every 2weeks....and even a week when i was having a bad hair day..but thanks to support from Hubby and Bimby lads....LOVE YOU LOADSSSSSS......
I actually had a post in hand wills end that in a minute...Have a Fab day people..
Tuesday, 8 June 2010
My name is Ezra and I am a Weave Addict
They say the first way to move forward from an addiction.....is to first admit to your self that you are an addict...and search deeper as to why and how to get rid of the addiction...
so again i say my name is Ezra....and i am a Weave Addict....
ok so i have been thinking about this for a while...but really didnt know how to action it.....i just couldnt....all of a sudden it became life threatening....(ok so not literally) but u get my drift...
Especially because a number of circumstance just geared me to the fact that i need to limit some things i find myself doing which are influenced by the media or the perceptions of how i should look....
So i wont really describe myself has a designer freak and all...but lets say i like to look NICE....so hair..make up...shoe...bag...the whole works.....but really am a bit lazy to do effective makeup even though i could be better...however i find putting makeup on a bit boring and the fact that i have to wash all that stuff away when i get back from my outing....in other words..the less makeup i put on..the probability i wont need to wash my face when i get back...so i just head for bed.....(yeah i know....digusting but dont judge me..lolll....am sure u do it as well......)so really foundation and eyeliner is what i call makeup......i dont thread and have never threaded my eye brow.....its all too much work.....i just would rather invest in the cloths and hair...than those other things....
so to get straight to it....some months ago i had some nice fringe weave in my hair...and it was so fantastic....that i could live in the hair for another year if i could.....but my scalp was hitching....and you know the whole works....so took the hair out and low and behold i could not believe what was stirring back at me...i mean the whole of my front hair looked like it had been stolen while i was asleep...i mean there where patches mostly at the front....and boy was i upset.....i had to tie a scalf.....and didnt want my hubby to see it....cos if it was up to him..he wants me to go natural with locks.......which i dont find horrible i just think it would make me look rugged...which i dont particularly..like....i like the cool....sophisticated look....you get...lollll.....but again their ladys with locks that i have met that looked sophisticated.....
So this is Ezra.... tieing scarf all over the house which i hardly do except its bed time..(which my hubby finds disgusting anyway)........my husband is perplexed but he dosent say much....so as i have just had a baby 6 months back....well while picking her up....LE goes for my scarf which just falls to the floor....and i almost slapped this child....loll...(u know)...Hubby screams oh my God....!!!!! and then he burst out laughing.....i mean hysterically....u should have seen my face....i mean i took it hard and just couldnt understand what was so funny.....and he is like what happened to your hair???...am thinking in my mind....duh.....it fell out......so he realises am pissed and he apologises and goes on about how i used to have nice hair blah blah blah....am like which nice hair...you never saw the hair anyway.... i mean it really affected me bad....i couldnt go to the salon as i was too ashamed to open the hair in public...so i summon the courage and oh my......I Thank God i have a discreet hair dresser but it was written all over her face...like (what did you do to your hair and all)......i just smiled and made other conversations.......
Anyways it really just brought me back to reflection mode.....( i know its just hair but its surprising how your hair can really knock down your confidence)....i start to think way back and i realise i actually always had a weave or extensions on....or some new style and all...all of a sudden it hit me that i had been habouring this little idol just silent....called yaki or milky way...or which ever weave you do...cos all of a sudden i couldnt do without it.....so has silly has it sounded i prayed to God to let my hair grow....and my spirit convicted me.....and asked me...(so you can put more of those things in your hair....didnt it say...God created man in his Image and saw that it was good).....and am thinking to myself...does that mean i cant have weave in my hair.....as a christian...you know i start to panic within myself......
i think to myself...oh God what would i look like........I just had never done it...would i still be pretty i ask myself....i mean i look back at last month and its so surprising how this hair wahala was such a burden for me.....so please dont get this post wrong...am not telling you not to put weave in your hair....but if it has become something you cannot to without...if it changes the way you see yourself as i felt.....which means that thing on your head is affecting you inside somewhere...then you need to stop and reflect........(So i ask myself if we were created in the image of God...does he want us to do weave for bulk and length...i mean am i telling him the hair he created isnt sufficient and i need to add more stuff to make it look better)? sincerely i dont know and am continuously praying that God opens my Eye.....cos i am a weave Addict..
so back to my story.... i decide to try and rock it with my hair...so i went to my first outing with some friends and boy!!!! did i feel out of place...i just felt so plain and not up to it.....i just really thought everyone would look at me and my forgone front hair and think...why doesnt she just have weave to cover those patches on her head.....(LMAOOOO)......but men!!!! i alerted hubby to my feeling..and he just smiled at me...saying i was the most beautiful woman at the outing)....loll...yeah right....but anyway.....just said a silent prayer within me...and refused to think about my patches and decided to have fun instead....which i eventually did......besides no one made any comment about my patches.....lolll
but well it is 5weeks today with my hair and its almost unbelievable.....its funny i have been dreaming of weave on...LMAOOOO.....but what can a girl do......my front hair has grown gloryyyy to God...and a friend saw me over the wkd...telling me i was rocking my hair which made me feel goodddddd......But really i keep asking myself how long is this going to last......but i am taking it a day at a time....even though i am thinking of putting the hair in Braids soon.....or even locks....who knows.....But God Help me its byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee byeeeeee to my weave on.......Will tell you how it goes though........
if you re out there...and you have your hair most of the time...Pls help me.....let me know how you stop a black woman's hair from breaking and looking good in a world which is perplexed by Long weaves and extension........
xoxoxo
so again i say my name is Ezra....and i am a Weave Addict....
ok so i have been thinking about this for a while...but really didnt know how to action it.....i just couldnt....all of a sudden it became life threatening....(ok so not literally) but u get my drift...
Especially because a number of circumstance just geared me to the fact that i need to limit some things i find myself doing which are influenced by the media or the perceptions of how i should look....
So i wont really describe myself has a designer freak and all...but lets say i like to look NICE....so hair..make up...shoe...bag...the whole works.....but really am a bit lazy to do effective makeup even though i could be better...however i find putting makeup on a bit boring and the fact that i have to wash all that stuff away when i get back from my outing....in other words..the less makeup i put on..the probability i wont need to wash my face when i get back...so i just head for bed.....(yeah i know....digusting but dont judge me..lolll....am sure u do it as well......)so really foundation and eyeliner is what i call makeup......i dont thread and have never threaded my eye brow.....its all too much work.....i just would rather invest in the cloths and hair...than those other things....
so to get straight to it....some months ago i had some nice fringe weave in my hair...and it was so fantastic....that i could live in the hair for another year if i could.....but my scalp was hitching....and you know the whole works....so took the hair out and low and behold i could not believe what was stirring back at me...i mean the whole of my front hair looked like it had been stolen while i was asleep...i mean there where patches mostly at the front....and boy was i upset.....i had to tie a scalf.....and didnt want my hubby to see it....cos if it was up to him..he wants me to go natural with locks.......which i dont find horrible i just think it would make me look rugged...which i dont particularly..like....i like the cool....sophisticated look....you get...lollll.....but again their ladys with locks that i have met that looked sophisticated.....
So this is Ezra.... tieing scarf all over the house which i hardly do except its bed time..(which my hubby finds disgusting anyway)........my husband is perplexed but he dosent say much....so as i have just had a baby 6 months back....well while picking her up....LE goes for my scarf which just falls to the floor....and i almost slapped this child....loll...(u know)...Hubby screams oh my God....!!!!! and then he burst out laughing.....i mean hysterically....u should have seen my face....i mean i took it hard and just couldnt understand what was so funny.....and he is like what happened to your hair???...am thinking in my mind....duh.....it fell out......so he realises am pissed and he apologises and goes on about how i used to have nice hair blah blah blah....am like which nice hair...you never saw the hair anyway.... i mean it really affected me bad....i couldnt go to the salon as i was too ashamed to open the hair in public...so i summon the courage and oh my......I Thank God i have a discreet hair dresser but it was written all over her face...like (what did you do to your hair and all)......i just smiled and made other conversations.......
Anyways it really just brought me back to reflection mode.....( i know its just hair but its surprising how your hair can really knock down your confidence)....i start to think way back and i realise i actually always had a weave or extensions on....or some new style and all...all of a sudden it hit me that i had been habouring this little idol just silent....called yaki or milky way...or which ever weave you do...cos all of a sudden i couldnt do without it.....so has silly has it sounded i prayed to God to let my hair grow....and my spirit convicted me.....and asked me...(so you can put more of those things in your hair....didnt it say...God created man in his Image and saw that it was good).....and am thinking to myself...does that mean i cant have weave in my hair.....as a christian...you know i start to panic within myself......
i think to myself...oh God what would i look like........I just had never done it...would i still be pretty i ask myself....i mean i look back at last month and its so surprising how this hair wahala was such a burden for me.....so please dont get this post wrong...am not telling you not to put weave in your hair....but if it has become something you cannot to without...if it changes the way you see yourself as i felt.....which means that thing on your head is affecting you inside somewhere...then you need to stop and reflect........(So i ask myself if we were created in the image of God...does he want us to do weave for bulk and length...i mean am i telling him the hair he created isnt sufficient and i need to add more stuff to make it look better)? sincerely i dont know and am continuously praying that God opens my Eye.....cos i am a weave Addict..
so back to my story.... i decide to try and rock it with my hair...so i went to my first outing with some friends and boy!!!! did i feel out of place...i just felt so plain and not up to it.....i just really thought everyone would look at me and my forgone front hair and think...why doesnt she just have weave to cover those patches on her head.....(LMAOOOO)......but men!!!! i alerted hubby to my feeling..and he just smiled at me...saying i was the most beautiful woman at the outing)....loll...yeah right....but anyway.....just said a silent prayer within me...and refused to think about my patches and decided to have fun instead....which i eventually did......besides no one made any comment about my patches.....lolll
but well it is 5weeks today with my hair and its almost unbelievable.....its funny i have been dreaming of weave on...LMAOOOO.....but what can a girl do......my front hair has grown gloryyyy to God...and a friend saw me over the wkd...telling me i was rocking my hair which made me feel goodddddd......But really i keep asking myself how long is this going to last......but i am taking it a day at a time....even though i am thinking of putting the hair in Braids soon.....or even locks....who knows.....But God Help me its byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee byeeeeee to my weave on.......Will tell you how it goes though........
if you re out there...and you have your hair most of the time...Pls help me.....let me know how you stop a black woman's hair from breaking and looking good in a world which is perplexed by Long weaves and extension........
xoxoxo
Wednesday, 19 May 2010
Another Revelation
So today i have just finished reading the most inspirational and inspiring book of my life...or say of my entire being....(ok so dont mind me using inspirational and inspiring in the same sentence)
so seriously...how do i explain it...how do i let you understand such revelation...that can only come from Gods love....oh my!!!! i am stammering in my thoughts...because my words fail me on where to start exactly.....
so firstly the name of this book is called "The Shack".....by WM Paul Young...so this book is not fiction of any sort but based on the true story of a man who had an encounter with God in an old shack.....
and ohhh did he bombard God with a lot of questions that we find ourselves asking today
ok so i wont be telling you everything that happened in the book as i want you to read it
but i will be quoting some text from it and just pinpointing what i gained and what captured my being, Although i bet there re somethings i would mention and you would probably be like i knew that already.....but i will state them anyway.....loll
1.that God loves us more than we could ever imagine....i mean more than our being can fathom and although we dont deserve it....he does
2..that God dosent have an expectation of us as he made us remember...(he knows what you re capable of ) but he gives you freewill...(choice) to fellowship with him
3. Jesus christ is God in Humanly form..(Can you believe that...he left the splendour of his heavens to be judged by men)...
4.that everystep of our journey in life...God is actually really with us....(I mean every step of the way practically) even though we cant always tell....
5. that we re incalpable of fulfiling any love to others in christ except through christ himself...
6. that no matter how smart, successful or independent you try to be...you can not live this life without solemnly relying on God...
7.that God dwells with us in the present.....so worrying about your future or something that happened in the past has no point...as the present is what matters...
8..that from every evil or disappointment that happens in our world...even though its not God's intention...he finds a way to redeem you back into a path of good
9..that darkness hides the true size of fears and lies....the truth is they re more shadow than reality, so they seem bigger in the dark...when light shines into the places that live inside us we start to see it for what it is...
10..that in our pain we assume the worst of God
11..that God is not big on religion but into a relationship with him...
12..that God will travel any road to find us....
13.. that the bible tells us about Jesus christ and the way he lived...not so that we could copy him....but to learn that he lived a perfect life in christ because he submitted all to the father...either good or evil....(which us has humans never do...we include him in the start and all of a sudden when the bad comes...we re thinking that cant be God).....its about leaving it all to him...either death or sickness or a loss of job...or death of a loved one....
as it quotes in page 136 has God explains what happens without him in our lives
Both evil and darkness can only be understood in relation to light and Good; they do not have any actual existence. I am Light and I am Good..I am love and there is no darkness in me..Light and Good actually exist. so removing yourself from me will plunge you into darkness..Declaring Independence will result in evil because apart from me you can only draw upon yourself..that is death because you have separated yourself from me life......
Do you get this....as we re in darkness without God.....its like a race, we keep going in circles but never reaching the finishing line....just going round and round.....at the end of it...we get exhausted but we still keep looking for the finish line...which we could never find....unless God was there to guide us.....
i urge you to please read this book and let me know what you think as i am seriously perplexed at how simple our God is....how he is not into hierarchy or power of any sort....but how he is full of pure everlasting love.....
"for we should not be conformed to the things of this world"...or about how we should live our life in christ but in all things we should do in accordance to the spirit of God that lives in us...and to seek knowledge from the father who has created us.....
so seriously...how do i explain it...how do i let you understand such revelation...that can only come from Gods love....oh my!!!! i am stammering in my thoughts...because my words fail me on where to start exactly.....
so firstly the name of this book is called "The Shack".....by WM Paul Young...so this book is not fiction of any sort but based on the true story of a man who had an encounter with God in an old shack.....
and ohhh did he bombard God with a lot of questions that we find ourselves asking today
ok so i wont be telling you everything that happened in the book as i want you to read it
but i will be quoting some text from it and just pinpointing what i gained and what captured my being, Although i bet there re somethings i would mention and you would probably be like i knew that already.....but i will state them anyway.....loll
1.that God loves us more than we could ever imagine....i mean more than our being can fathom and although we dont deserve it....he does
2..that God dosent have an expectation of us as he made us remember...(he knows what you re capable of ) but he gives you freewill...(choice) to fellowship with him
3. Jesus christ is God in Humanly form..(Can you believe that...he left the splendour of his heavens to be judged by men)...
4.that everystep of our journey in life...God is actually really with us....(I mean every step of the way practically) even though we cant always tell....
5. that we re incalpable of fulfiling any love to others in christ except through christ himself...
6. that no matter how smart, successful or independent you try to be...you can not live this life without solemnly relying on God...
7.that God dwells with us in the present.....so worrying about your future or something that happened in the past has no point...as the present is what matters...
8..that from every evil or disappointment that happens in our world...even though its not God's intention...he finds a way to redeem you back into a path of good
9..that darkness hides the true size of fears and lies....the truth is they re more shadow than reality, so they seem bigger in the dark...when light shines into the places that live inside us we start to see it for what it is...
10..that in our pain we assume the worst of God
11..that God is not big on religion but into a relationship with him...
12..that God will travel any road to find us....
13.. that the bible tells us about Jesus christ and the way he lived...not so that we could copy him....but to learn that he lived a perfect life in christ because he submitted all to the father...either good or evil....(which us has humans never do...we include him in the start and all of a sudden when the bad comes...we re thinking that cant be God).....its about leaving it all to him...either death or sickness or a loss of job...or death of a loved one....
as it quotes in page 136 has God explains what happens without him in our lives
Both evil and darkness can only be understood in relation to light and Good; they do not have any actual existence. I am Light and I am Good..I am love and there is no darkness in me..Light and Good actually exist. so removing yourself from me will plunge you into darkness..Declaring Independence will result in evil because apart from me you can only draw upon yourself..that is death because you have separated yourself from me life......
Do you get this....as we re in darkness without God.....its like a race, we keep going in circles but never reaching the finishing line....just going round and round.....at the end of it...we get exhausted but we still keep looking for the finish line...which we could never find....unless God was there to guide us.....
i urge you to please read this book and let me know what you think as i am seriously perplexed at how simple our God is....how he is not into hierarchy or power of any sort....but how he is full of pure everlasting love.....
"for we should not be conformed to the things of this world"...or about how we should live our life in christ but in all things we should do in accordance to the spirit of God that lives in us...and to seek knowledge from the father who has created us.....
Monday, 10 May 2010
Time
oh how time flies....
how i remember those times
those fun exciting times
when we use to be so excited to meet
taking turns whose house it was next to meet....
Oh...how we use to talk about our then boyfriends now our husbands....
Oh...how we use to endlessly chat on emails with laughter at work....
Oh...how we use to laugh so hard our tummy would hurt
Oh...how we use to laugh so hard with tears running down our eyes
how we use to watch dvds about men cheating and debated all night about what we would do to a man that treated us that way.....
oh..how we had good men.....has lovers........
Oh how i remember those memories of us......
how life was much happier...
more peaceful.....
more loveable.......
more content.......
how we thought marriage will make us better friends....
how we were so excited about our girls night outs and night ins....
how we gisted till day break.....
how exciting we day dreamed about our all girls vacations...
how we daydreamed about our kids becoming best friends....
how we hoped our husbands would be best friends.....
how we shared our latest dread life was throwing our way.....
how we consoled each other....
how we prayed together
Ohhhh how sincerely we loved each other.....
now i know time does fly....
how those times seem like a very distant memory in another life..
ohhh how our marriages opened doors to another life....
ohhhh how it takes a ache and a large amount of self control to keep in touch....
ohhh how life has dished us different passages of it own.....
ohhhh how i miss us....oh how i miss those times.......
ohhhh how i wish time could be reversed.....
ohhhh how i wish moments could be replayed.....
ohhhh how i wish we could forever keep in touch like we use to.....
ohhhhh how i know as much as times cannot be reversed....they re so treasured......
ohhhh how i miss my sisters....my God given friends.....Ohhhhh how i miss usss......
for my gals........
how i remember those times
those fun exciting times
when we use to be so excited to meet
taking turns whose house it was next to meet....
Oh...how we use to talk about our then boyfriends now our husbands....
Oh...how we use to endlessly chat on emails with laughter at work....
Oh...how we use to laugh so hard our tummy would hurt
Oh...how we use to laugh so hard with tears running down our eyes
how we use to watch dvds about men cheating and debated all night about what we would do to a man that treated us that way.....
oh..how we had good men.....has lovers........
Oh how i remember those memories of us......
how life was much happier...
more peaceful.....
more loveable.......
more content.......
how we thought marriage will make us better friends....
how we were so excited about our girls night outs and night ins....
how we gisted till day break.....
how exciting we day dreamed about our all girls vacations...
how we daydreamed about our kids becoming best friends....
how we hoped our husbands would be best friends.....
how we shared our latest dread life was throwing our way.....
how we consoled each other....
how we prayed together
Ohhhh how sincerely we loved each other.....
now i know time does fly....
how those times seem like a very distant memory in another life..
ohhh how our marriages opened doors to another life....
ohhhh how it takes a ache and a large amount of self control to keep in touch....
ohhh how life has dished us different passages of it own.....
ohhhh how i miss us....oh how i miss those times.......
ohhhh how i wish time could be reversed.....
ohhhh how i wish moments could be replayed.....
ohhhh how i wish we could forever keep in touch like we use to.....
ohhhhh how i know as much as times cannot be reversed....they re so treasured......
ohhhh how i miss my sisters....my God given friends.....Ohhhhh how i miss usss......
for my gals........
Wednesday, 7 April 2010
My Big & Small sins
ok what re your big and small sins?......cos God knows i dont commit big sins like Iniquity and stuff.....i only tell really small white lies.....once in a month.......u know......Is dat how you are as well......lolllll
ok so some time ago i remember having a discussion at fellowship...about how big others sins were and how small ours were in comparence....(at least thats what we tell ourselves)
It was amazing to find out that we christians are very good at categorising and been judgemental to other people classifying them as big sinners while we were not....
so a liar looks at a fraudster and says to his conscience....ohhh am i better than the fraudster who steals....i just tell a little lie ever so often.....and the fraudster looks onto the Fornicator and says to himself i only do fraud ones in a while to provide for the family God Gave me......as i am the head and not the tail...
then the fornicator tells himself at least i will marry her one day so i am just sampling my goods before the original day,(there is nothing really wrong with that ...is it????)but at least i am not an adulterer sleeping with another woman while i was married....that must be far worst in Gods Book..
then the wife or friend only says to herself i only gossip when i am very angry or bored and that only happens few days a week.....so its a small sin....i mean we tell ourselves other people commit bigger sins by sleeping with their friends husband or by committing abortion.....but me i only gossip.....and spread rumours about others...so that is not so bad compared to what she did.......
i mean really the list of our classification goes on and on......
so really who owes who accountability, as we re constantly comparing our selves to others to make ourselves feel better...so in everywork of our lifes...we compare partners....we compare kids.....we compare wealth....we compare cars....we compare love...so we have learnt to do in our sins as well......classifying Iniquity as bigger sins and liars as small sin.......
I know this perfect life we inspire to live in christ can only be given to us by the spirit of christ...but why not remove the "plank in our eyes first before removing the sawdust in anothers eyes".....
Has it says in Rev 22: 14
( Blessed are they that do his commandment, that they may have the right to the tree of life and may enter through the gates into the city, for outside are dogs, sorcerers and whoremongers, and murderers and idolaters and whosoever loves and tell a lie)
for me this passage classifies from the biggest of atrocities of sin to the smallest....i mean from Murderers, witchcraft to whoever told a lie.....(Just one lie)......so in other words we re all sinners....small sinners if it makes u feel better or a big sinner....In Gods Word there is no classification of sin....Its under one law.....
But Gods Mercy is so great.....that if we bring our sins before him he is merciful and graceful to forgive......of our sins....
Pls let us try and perfect our ways to be first good people..good neighbours...good friends...good wifes and husbands to each other .....before carrying the banner of christ in other peoples faces.....lets not make christians a bad example to the world......Let the Goodwill of Christs name be evident in our ways of life....our attitude towards others.....and not just in church on sunday or where other christians are gathered to exhibit our best christlike behaviour......But everywhere....May the Holy spirit perfect our ways in christ.....(Amen)...
Have a lovely day everyone.......
ok so some time ago i remember having a discussion at fellowship...about how big others sins were and how small ours were in comparence....(at least thats what we tell ourselves)
It was amazing to find out that we christians are very good at categorising and been judgemental to other people classifying them as big sinners while we were not....
so a liar looks at a fraudster and says to his conscience....ohhh am i better than the fraudster who steals....i just tell a little lie ever so often.....and the fraudster looks onto the Fornicator and says to himself i only do fraud ones in a while to provide for the family God Gave me......as i am the head and not the tail...
then the fornicator tells himself at least i will marry her one day so i am just sampling my goods before the original day,(there is nothing really wrong with that ...is it????)but at least i am not an adulterer sleeping with another woman while i was married....that must be far worst in Gods Book..
then the wife or friend only says to herself i only gossip when i am very angry or bored and that only happens few days a week.....so its a small sin....i mean we tell ourselves other people commit bigger sins by sleeping with their friends husband or by committing abortion.....but me i only gossip.....and spread rumours about others...so that is not so bad compared to what she did.......
i mean really the list of our classification goes on and on......
so really who owes who accountability, as we re constantly comparing our selves to others to make ourselves feel better...so in everywork of our lifes...we compare partners....we compare kids.....we compare wealth....we compare cars....we compare love...so we have learnt to do in our sins as well......classifying Iniquity as bigger sins and liars as small sin.......
I know this perfect life we inspire to live in christ can only be given to us by the spirit of christ...but why not remove the "plank in our eyes first before removing the sawdust in anothers eyes".....
Has it says in Rev 22: 14
( Blessed are they that do his commandment, that they may have the right to the tree of life and may enter through the gates into the city, for outside are dogs, sorcerers and whoremongers, and murderers and idolaters and whosoever loves and tell a lie)
for me this passage classifies from the biggest of atrocities of sin to the smallest....i mean from Murderers, witchcraft to whoever told a lie.....(Just one lie)......so in other words we re all sinners....small sinners if it makes u feel better or a big sinner....In Gods Word there is no classification of sin....Its under one law.....
But Gods Mercy is so great.....that if we bring our sins before him he is merciful and graceful to forgive......of our sins....
Pls let us try and perfect our ways to be first good people..good neighbours...good friends...good wifes and husbands to each other .....before carrying the banner of christ in other peoples faces.....lets not make christians a bad example to the world......Let the Goodwill of Christs name be evident in our ways of life....our attitude towards others.....and not just in church on sunday or where other christians are gathered to exhibit our best christlike behaviour......But everywhere....May the Holy spirit perfect our ways in christ.....(Amen)...
Have a lovely day everyone.......
Monday, 5 April 2010
Asleep
I watch you as you sleep
How perfect are your smiles....
how imcomprehensible the happiness,
the peace, the Joy.
How much of a Miracle you are,
How it was all worth it....
all the aches, all the cry, all the agony
How specially and wonderfully made you are
How much i love you, How much i needed you...how much i ached to have u.....
How glorious is his love, How bountiful his mercy
How it was all worth it, ohhhh How it was all worth it.......
To my yet so tiny LE........
How perfect are your smiles....
how imcomprehensible the happiness,
the peace, the Joy.
How much of a Miracle you are,
How it was all worth it....
all the aches, all the cry, all the agony
How specially and wonderfully made you are
How much i love you, How much i needed you...how much i ached to have u.....
How glorious is his love, How bountiful his mercy
How it was all worth it, ohhhh How it was all worth it.......
To my yet so tiny LE........
Sunday, 4 April 2010
My First Time
Hello everyone,
So i am new to this, although i have continuously speculated for years if i should own a blog or not...i just couldnt decide....so well i finally got over my fears and procastinating nature and actually got down to it....
sincerely am not sure about what i should be writing, but i am thinking as time goes on, it will take shape...guess it will be a mixture of stories, testimonies daily heart pours,proverbs, poems, revelations, lamentations all the works....
ok a bit about myself....I am a christian reciding in the United Kingdom..i continuously ask for Gods strength to perfect my ways with him....so i strive to be a Good person, a better & developing christian, I am a wife to the most amazing Man on the planet (at least i think) and a mother to the most adorable baby girl in the world...
Well recently i have come to realise that the more you strive to be a better christian, the harder it is to fit into this so called world of ours....from fashion, to hair extensions, to makeup...even to keeping some friends, to music....everything really just gets affected...and ur spirit will query you about some things which u have convinced urself to think its okkk....(Has Christianity should be a way of life not just about going to church)...everything around us is bound to change but cos our flesh, well my flesh is so weak i find myself craving for even the most ridiculous thing to show others u re a bubbly christian, u re fashionista, whatever we can call it. in other words just to be involved in it all.....but then i realised all is Vanity......
I understand that their isnt a reason why we shld become boring christians but really who defines what boring is...(Our TV, Magazines...in other words...the world!!!!) However i think it is important to understand the priority of our being.....which first is that our body, spirit being was designed to serve God and fellowship with him....i have just finished reading a book which shook the whole of my being.. i mean if this is the only book u read in your entire life before u die, i would recommend the THE FALL OF LUCIFER....by Wendy Alec..(The chronicle Brothers)
i mean its such a wonderful revalation into the love of christ for Man, i know their was a bit of fiction to it,but in all its a fantastic insight on how the father loved us and much more.....it tells you how Eve was tempted by lucifer, how lucifer fell from heaven....why he fell....how much God loved lucifer before he fell...i mean believe me this book is an eye opener.....into what we think is okay to do in the world we live in.....it talks about the scams of the Devil on Earth...it talks about it all....Its a must read......xoxoxoxo.....
ok well before i diverted....i have constantly found it hard to love my neighbours not in the literal form but in other words to love everyone around me....cos if you can do that....then well u re 90% almost there....u would obviously not envy a person u love....or gossip about them...or abuse them....or shout abuses at that guy who has cut u up while driving i mean the world would really be a better place...i mean it is like it says in the Good Book Love Conquers all....
I mean the word Love comes a long way...as i know it is easier to love a person who is sweet and kind to us... but what about those ones who constantly envy, abuse and gossip about u....i mean how do u feel towards those people....cos i know i just want to punch them....(God Help me).....Then i wonder how Jesus felt when he DIED for me on the cross even though i wasnt worth it....i mean those people spat, beat, abandoned, and made jest of him and yet he died to wipea way our iniquity so that we could have a chance of Heaven, so that we could fellowship with his father.....so that we could become Covenant Children.....I mean for me that is Overwhelming.....
Can you imagine God in his splendour transformed himself into Man...in other to wash away our sins...he left the majesty of his Kingdom above, where cherubs and seraph sang to him day in day out to come down to earth to be spat on and beaten.....so that i could be with him for eternity......so that u could be with him...(Could you do it....Leave ur mansion whereever u were to the slum.....to live with people who blasphamed and striped u down).....especially when God had the power to make time still...the lord who created the Earth and everything in it(Psalm 24) but he still did not...cos he loved us.....i couldnt have imagined the pain he went through for us.....as i struggle on this earth to perfect my way in Christ i constantly remind myself you cannot give up on urself has he didnt Give up on u....U cant let all that blood!!!! All that Love!!! Go to Waste.....He Paid too much of a Price for me....For u....For us.....Dont You Think!!!!!!
So i am new to this, although i have continuously speculated for years if i should own a blog or not...i just couldnt decide....so well i finally got over my fears and procastinating nature and actually got down to it....
sincerely am not sure about what i should be writing, but i am thinking as time goes on, it will take shape...guess it will be a mixture of stories, testimonies daily heart pours,proverbs, poems, revelations, lamentations all the works....
ok a bit about myself....I am a christian reciding in the United Kingdom..i continuously ask for Gods strength to perfect my ways with him....so i strive to be a Good person, a better & developing christian, I am a wife to the most amazing Man on the planet (at least i think) and a mother to the most adorable baby girl in the world...
Well recently i have come to realise that the more you strive to be a better christian, the harder it is to fit into this so called world of ours....from fashion, to hair extensions, to makeup...even to keeping some friends, to music....everything really just gets affected...and ur spirit will query you about some things which u have convinced urself to think its okkk....(Has Christianity should be a way of life not just about going to church)...everything around us is bound to change but cos our flesh, well my flesh is so weak i find myself craving for even the most ridiculous thing to show others u re a bubbly christian, u re fashionista, whatever we can call it. in other words just to be involved in it all.....but then i realised all is Vanity......
I understand that their isnt a reason why we shld become boring christians but really who defines what boring is...(Our TV, Magazines...in other words...the world!!!!) However i think it is important to understand the priority of our being.....which first is that our body, spirit being was designed to serve God and fellowship with him....i have just finished reading a book which shook the whole of my being.. i mean if this is the only book u read in your entire life before u die, i would recommend the THE FALL OF LUCIFER....by Wendy Alec..(The chronicle Brothers)
i mean its such a wonderful revalation into the love of christ for Man, i know their was a bit of fiction to it,but in all its a fantastic insight on how the father loved us and much more.....it tells you how Eve was tempted by lucifer, how lucifer fell from heaven....why he fell....how much God loved lucifer before he fell...i mean believe me this book is an eye opener.....into what we think is okay to do in the world we live in.....it talks about the scams of the Devil on Earth...it talks about it all....Its a must read......xoxoxoxo.....
ok well before i diverted....i have constantly found it hard to love my neighbours not in the literal form but in other words to love everyone around me....cos if you can do that....then well u re 90% almost there....u would obviously not envy a person u love....or gossip about them...or abuse them....or shout abuses at that guy who has cut u up while driving i mean the world would really be a better place...i mean it is like it says in the Good Book Love Conquers all....
I mean the word Love comes a long way...as i know it is easier to love a person who is sweet and kind to us... but what about those ones who constantly envy, abuse and gossip about u....i mean how do u feel towards those people....cos i know i just want to punch them....(God Help me).....Then i wonder how Jesus felt when he DIED for me on the cross even though i wasnt worth it....i mean those people spat, beat, abandoned, and made jest of him and yet he died to wipea way our iniquity so that we could have a chance of Heaven, so that we could fellowship with his father.....so that we could become Covenant Children.....I mean for me that is Overwhelming.....
Can you imagine God in his splendour transformed himself into Man...in other to wash away our sins...he left the majesty of his Kingdom above, where cherubs and seraph sang to him day in day out to come down to earth to be spat on and beaten.....so that i could be with him for eternity......so that u could be with him...(Could you do it....Leave ur mansion whereever u were to the slum.....to live with people who blasphamed and striped u down).....especially when God had the power to make time still...the lord who created the Earth and everything in it(Psalm 24) but he still did not...cos he loved us.....i couldnt have imagined the pain he went through for us.....as i struggle on this earth to perfect my way in Christ i constantly remind myself you cannot give up on urself has he didnt Give up on u....U cant let all that blood!!!! All that Love!!! Go to Waste.....He Paid too much of a Price for me....For u....For us.....Dont You Think!!!!!!
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