My First Time

Hello everyone,

So i am new to this, although i have continuously speculated for years if i should own a blog or not...i just couldnt decide....so well i finally got over my fears and procastinating nature and actually got down to it....

sincerely am not sure about what i should be writing, but i am thinking as time goes on, it will take shape...guess it will be a mixture of stories, testimonies daily heart pours,proverbs, poems, revelations, lamentations all the works....

ok a bit about myself....I am a christian reciding in the United Kingdom..i continuously ask for Gods strength to perfect my ways with him....so i strive to be a Good person, a better & developing christian, I am a wife to the most amazing Man on the planet (at least i think) and a mother to the most adorable baby girl in the world...

Well recently i have come to realise that the more you strive to be a better christian, the harder it is to fit into this so called world of ours....from fashion, to hair extensions, to makeup...even to keeping some friends, to music....everything really just gets affected...and ur spirit will query you about some things which u have convinced urself to think its okkk....(Has Christianity should be a way of life not just about going to church)...everything around us is bound to change but cos our flesh, well my flesh is so weak i find myself craving for even the most ridiculous thing to show others u re a bubbly christian, u re fashionista, whatever we can call it. in other words just to be involved in it all.....but then i realised all is Vanity......

I understand that their isnt a reason why we shld become boring christians but really who defines what boring is...(Our TV, Magazines...in other words...the world!!!!) However i think it is important to understand the priority of our being.....which first is that our body, spirit being was designed to serve God and fellowship with him....i have just finished reading a book which shook the whole of my being.. i mean if this is the only book u read in your entire life before u die, i would recommend the THE FALL OF LUCIFER....by Wendy Alec..(The chronicle Brothers)

i mean its such a wonderful revalation into the love of christ for Man, i know their was a bit of fiction to it,but in all its a fantastic insight on how the father loved us and much more.....it tells you how Eve was tempted by lucifer, how lucifer fell from heaven....why he fell....how much God loved lucifer before he fell...i mean believe me this book is an eye opener.....into what we think is okay to do in the world we live in.....it talks about the scams of the Devil on Earth...it talks about it all....Its a must read......xoxoxoxo.....

ok well before i diverted....i have constantly found it hard to love my neighbours not in the literal form but in other words to love everyone around me....cos if you can do that....then well u re 90% almost there....u would obviously not envy a person u love....or gossip about them...or abuse them....or shout abuses at that guy who has cut u up while driving i mean the world would really be a better place...i mean it is like it says in the Good Book Love Conquers all....

I mean the word Love comes a long way...as i know it is easier to love a person who is sweet and kind to us... but what about those ones who constantly envy, abuse and gossip about u....i mean how do u feel towards those people....cos i know i just want to punch them....(God Help me).....Then i wonder how Jesus felt when he DIED for me on the cross even though i wasnt worth it....i mean those people spat, beat, abandoned, and made jest of him and yet he died to wipea way our iniquity so that we could have a chance of Heaven, so that we could fellowship with his father.....so that we could become Covenant Children.....I mean for me that is Overwhelming.....

Can you imagine God in his splendour transformed himself into Man...in other to wash away our sins...he left the majesty of his Kingdom above, where cherubs and seraph sang to him day in day out to come down to earth to be spat on and beaten.....so that i could be with him for eternity......so that u could be with him...(Could you do it....Leave ur mansion whereever u were to the slum.....to live with people who blasphamed and striped u down).....especially when God had the power to make time still...the lord who created the Earth and everything in it(Psalm 24) but he still did not...cos he loved us.....i couldnt have imagined the pain he went through for us.....as i struggle on this earth to perfect my way in Christ i constantly remind myself you cannot give up on urself has he didnt Give up on u....U cant let all that blood!!!! All that Love!!! Go to Waste.....He Paid too much of a Price for me....For u....For us.....Dont You Think!!!!!!